I know myself. I'm a big problem from inside. I know I am and it keeps nagging me all the time. I know it's inside of me long time ago, but I can do nothing about it. It's just me.
Every single day I keep saying to myself, what if I'm another person that has no skills like the one I have now! What if someone else has the same capabilities or the same skills? He would probably use it more effectively than I actually do.
I can see young players around me trying to step their first steps or trying to prove themselves in a way or another, which is their right of course; but what about me? I used to have that feeling of underestimating myself with no intense of course, but I just feel it. I feel like I'm always overload myself and ask for a little when I should ask for more.
What made me take it seriously this time is that most of my real friends keep saying to me that I should do so and so, or make so and so, or this is the right place for you, this is this the right thing for you ... etc
Have you ever felt one day that you should work in a certain field, place, time or even with a certain group of people? Have you ever felt that you should become someone else with different skills or doing something else than what you are doing right now? .. I feel it .. everyday! I know I have another person, inside of me.
For this reason, I'm going to write this down. I need to do at least one good thing for him before the time is over.
That was a small intro for the second person inside of me, the one that I should be, and the one that I should thank for what he did for me, the one I used to call him ... Geeee
To be continued ...
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